Saying there’s no such thing as a narcissist is only true when you’re feeling generous. The rest of the time, they’re real enough and its denial to say otherwise. You can feel trapped, especially if its family or work, and it can be tough keeping alive that you’re not destined to be a victim of the situation.
That other really might be depersonalising you, loading you down with shadow material, unrealistic expectations and enviously tugging at you’re essence.
What do you do?
here are some options;
1) play masochistically into the game without let or hindrance.
2) play masochistically into the game whilst wondering what you are about.
3) spend seven years in anaysis and then back away.
4) back away.
Wondering what you are about is good for a couple of things. Its good for seeing if you are balanced. If you aren’t they topple you over. Its like a pillow fight on a greased pole but you have no pillow.
And its good for practising compassion.
Don’t get caught in the story. Don’t stop at being so damn clever about the game they’re playing.
Go deeper.
See past the nonsense to the vacant, unmothered child behind the glass, where I can no longer talk to me.
Then, deeper still, to the flower that’s still alive beneath the boot.
This has the effect of changing the dynamics. The practice of kindness is powerful stuff and it doesn’t cost you your point of veiw. You are modelling tolerance of difference and embodying the other’s potential to do likewise.
Change begins that no amount of making-the-other-see will ever achieve.
An aspect of Relatedness that we lost with the Goddess is that generosity of spirit which is willing to walk a mile in another’s shoes and is actually the kind of mirroring containment the other really needs and is asking for in the first place.
Oh, and, don’t sign anything.
